The Fat Just Walks Away…I wish (Monthly Update)

  
It’s been a while, but I was finally able to see my doctor for my monthly weigh in and measurements.

I’ll be honest it was a hard month. A friend of mine died suddenly, and I was a wreck for most of May. I had been walking every night, but I stopped. I was still recording my food, but as we got closer to her memorial; I gave up on that. I was also not making the best food choices.  Anyway, the last week or so, I got back on track, but I was expecting the worst.  I was pleasantly surprised. I’m pretty sure there was some divine intervention involved. 

So, I’m down 12 pounds. Woo hoo!  She also said I was down 4 inches. I’m not sure where those inches came from, but I know not my belly. I sneaked a peek at the sheet and that one stayed the same.

I’m hoping that June will be a better month.

I hope you all are doing well on your journeys!! See you next month!

   

No pictures of me this month, but these guys are cuter anyway.

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It’s Not A Diet!

Hello friends! Miss me? 
~A friend of mine who is also trying to lose weight posted this one day. It fits.~

(This was yesterday, I wasn’t able to get it posted.)

Instead of an update for April, you get a play-by-play of my day! Today I met my new doctor. My old doctor left the practice because his doctor wife got a teaching job. So that left me with no doctor. . .thanks. 

I knew I wanted an Internist. Using that as my search starter I found one that was not only Internal Medicine, but had a focus on Weight Management. Perfect right?  I made my appointment in January and today is the day! 

To start, her office is associated with a hospital, so her building has literally every specialist I’ll ever need. In this one visit, I already have a new GYN. Woo hoo!! Her staff was nice and diverse, which made me really happy. Where I live, you don’t always find that. They do routine EKGs…what? Um, take my shirt off and put on this gown? But I just met you. . .

The doctor comes in, she’s really thin. I mean, really thin, but good right? She’s going to manage my weight. I need that. 

We talk, she says all the things I already know. She tells me to hide my scale. I need to go by how my clothes fit. That scares me. She gave me some meds and suggested future use of something I’ve never tried. She said eat more protein. They took my measurements before I left.

The part that was concerning was that even though I told her I had intestinal pain and a family history of colon cancer, she didn’t seem concerned about doing a colonoscopy.

The good, I have to come back once a month to check in. I like that accountability. 

So, this is the next step on my journey. I just wanted to share. And now, I’ll sit here and wait for all those normal labs you have to have done when you’re doing an annual visit. (It was a long wait, over an hour.)

I hope you are all doing well with your weight loss!! 

This month’s update

So true…  

I’m super good friends with my fat.  So update changes-

I’m not a regular person when it comes to my cycle. So, it turns out that my monthly weigh in and measurements are falling on the day prior to my start or on my start date. It’s throwing my numbers out of whack. So I guess I’ll be adjusting my updates based on when things end. 

Anyway, even without that, I’m behind on my weight loss this month. I should be at a 12lb loss to meet my goal date of mid-November, however I’ve fallen short.  I’m only at 8.6 lost so I’m behind by 3.4lbs. I’d love to say that my clothes are fitting better and I’ve lost inches, but no. I was doing really well until I hit the time of my cycle when I would be ovulating, then I got tired, stopped exercising and started making bad food choices. I’m wondering if this is a thing. I’m heading to the other side of the cycle and I’m wondering how things will change. I typically get less hungry during my period. If I can find a connection, I think that will be very helpful.

So there is the monthly update! I hope everyone is doing well with their goals!!

As a closing question, if you’re a woman, have you found that your cycle affects your weight loss?

Weigh In – #1

  
Today is update day! So how have I been doing? Not as well as I hoped, better than I thought? A little of both I’d say. 

Full disclosure, I almost didn’t do my weigh in today. It’s that time of the month, so along with my normal weight gain, I get all kinds of crazy hormonal things going on, in fact, that might be a future post. I digress…

Weight – 247.4 (down 6 lbs which was the monthly goal)

Bust and chest went up-I’m guessing hormones considering what time it is?

Bust – 52 1/2 inches

Chest – 44 inches

Natural Waist – 43 inches

Mid Waist – 50 1/2 inches

Lower Waist – 52 1/2 inches

Hips – 47 1/2 inches

Thighs – 26 inches

Upper arms – 15 1/2 inches

All other measurements went down. Hoorah!! 

Now for the pics – 

   
 
I couldn’t get a good picture from the back.

  
It’s a mixed bag, this post. Goods, bads, and inbetweens.

So, how are you all doing with your goals? 

How did I get here?

 Like so many others I ask myself this- How did I get here? 

I know part of it. I plateau or I give myself a day off from being accountable, and then another and another-then it’s been over a week since I have tracked my food and posted here. It’s possible it’s been two weeks.

But it’s not just that. 

Above is a screen shot of the last year. Do you see the zig-zags? Up and down, up and down, like a yo-yo. It’s depressing. It makes me angry. But I do it to myself…don’t I? Or maybe not.

I have done the math. Since 2014, if I had kept off the weight (and I haven’t even recorded all of it) I would have lost 80 lbs. 80 pounds…wow! But I lose 20 to 30 and then I put it back on. This isn’t healthy.

So what caused it? I can’t say that I have the worst food habits. They aren’t great, but not the worst. I was reading an article today about a gentleman who was eating one large pizza every night for dinner. He gave it up for a month and lost 30lbs. I gave up pizza last month. And I didn’t eat a whole pizza every day. Maybe a piece or two once or twice a week. Guess what…it made no difference. I gave up soda and chocolate candy bars too. You guessed it…it’s made no difference. I’m not angry about this, I’m just pointing out, that this isn’t my problem. 

My body is weird. It doesn’t lose and gain weight properly. I have a friend who had the VSG procedure. She has regular doctor’s visits, she sees a nutritionist. She was losing weight really fast, at first. Now she’s at a stand still. She’s eating properly, she’s obviously under medical care.  Why do I mention her? Because, she and I have always shared this problem. And with all she’s gone through, the doctors, the exercise-her body is still fighting her weight loss. Why? She is doing everything right. And that’s what makes weight loss so hard for some of us. Our bodies are fighting us. 

So the next time someone gives me that look (and you may know what I mean). That look that says: “Ugh, she’s so lazy.” “Oh my gosh, why doesn’t she try to lose weight?” “She should eat better and not eat so much.” and “She should exercise.” I hope someone out there will have read this and understand that, yes, some people do eat poorly and not exercise, and then there are some of us that have other and issues. It’s not always that we are lazy or that we are eating too much. There are other things at play that have got us to where we are today. And they have no idea what we are doing to try to get ourselves healthy and happy. 

Happy Fat Tuesday

Ahh, Fat Tuesday. I’m not going all out, but since my husband and I are giving up pizza for Lent, and a few other things, I indulged and made gluten free pizza. 

I feel awful. 

It’s amazing how it’s so hard to start eating healthy. But then you do it and when you revert back to old eating habits, even just for a day, you start to feel bad. BUT (the big but) how easy it is to slip back into bad eating habits despite how bad you might feel. 

Isn’t it curious?  Isn’t this relationship that we have with food-mind and body-crazy? 

I’ll be honest. I was afraid to have my Dr. Pepper (which I’m also giving up)  and pizza today because I was so scared I would slip back into bad habits so easily. I’m not saying I won’t, but if I can remember how my stomach and intestines feel right this moment…it will give me pause. 

How about you all? Do any of you feel this way? 

 

Goals – Why and Do We Need Them?

For the last two years I have been trying to lose weight. I lose 20 to 30lbs and then I gain it all back. This yo-yoing has gotten old.

I few days ago I asked myself why? I’ve lost weight in the past and kept if off. Why not now? Thinking back I found a common theme. I was losing weight for someone or something.  

 Well, that’s why I’ve set a firm time goal. I hope this is my answer. In the past when I’ve lost weight, I realize that I had a time frame associated with it. But to just lose weight because I “need” to, seems not to be working. I’m still trying to figure out why I need a goal, but that I’ve acknowledged the fact is a first step, right?

As I’ve posted before, mid November is my first goal. That’s my husband’s 40th bday and we are taking a trip. I want to feel good and healthy. I do not want to be winded and feel uncomfortable in my skin.

I keep visualizing myself on this trip-Anytime I get hungry after I’ve already eaten-Or when I want that chip/dip/cookie/brownie/cake/ice cream/etc or a I feel a binge coming on, I envision myself on our trip. I think about the clothes I want to wear. I think about being able to wear a nice skirt and top to dinner, and eating (reasonably) what I want without worrying what other people are thinking. I envision myself knowing that the next day, I’ll make good choices because I’ve learned something, and because I feel better we will get out and move. 

This is going to be a very active trip. I NEED to feel good and comfortable. It’s not only a present to my husband, but a present to me. 

Fingers crossed! Hopefully a solid reason to commit will help me lose the weight!

How about you? Do you need a firm time goal? Or something to work toward? What motivates you?