Like so many others I ask myself this- How did I get here?
I know part of it. I plateau or I give myself a day off from being accountable, and then another and another-then it’s been over a week since I have tracked my food and posted here. It’s possible it’s been two weeks.
But it’s not just that.
Above is a screen shot of the last year. Do you see the zig-zags? Up and down, up and down, like a yo-yo. It’s depressing. It makes me angry. But I do it to myself…don’t I? Or maybe not.
I have done the math. Since 2014, if I had kept off the weight (and I haven’t even recorded all of it) I would have lost 80 lbs. 80 pounds…wow! But I lose 20 to 30 and then I put it back on. This isn’t healthy.
So what caused it? I can’t say that I have the worst food habits. They aren’t great, but not the worst. I was reading an article today about a gentleman who was eating one large pizza every night for dinner. He gave it up for a month and lost 30lbs. I gave up pizza last month. And I didn’t eat a whole pizza every day. Maybe a piece or two once or twice a week. Guess what…it made no difference. I gave up soda and chocolate candy bars too. You guessed it…it’s made no difference. I’m not angry about this, I’m just pointing out, that this isn’t my problem.
My body is weird. It doesn’t lose and gain weight properly. I have a friend who had the VSG procedure. She has regular doctor’s visits, she sees a nutritionist. She was losing weight really fast, at first. Now she’s at a stand still. She’s eating properly, she’s obviously under medical care. Why do I mention her? Because, she and I have always shared this problem. And with all she’s gone through, the doctors, the exercise-her body is still fighting her weight loss. Why? She is doing everything right. And that’s what makes weight loss so hard for some of us. Our bodies are fighting us.
So the next time someone gives me that look (and you may know what I mean). That look that says: “Ugh, she’s so lazy.” “Oh my gosh, why doesn’t she try to lose weight?” “She should eat better and not eat so much.” and “She should exercise.” I hope someone out there will have read this and understand that, yes, some people do eat poorly and not exercise, and then there are some of us that have other and issues. It’s not always that we are lazy or that we are eating too much. There are other things at play that have got us to where we are today. And they have no idea what we are doing to try to get ourselves healthy and happy.